Then, the list will continue why I will highlight this
three-letter word to further describe the year that has been full of
shit-pulling but nevertheless middle-finger-pointing worthy moments of triumphs…
My words are harsh and will be harsh but then again, this
will be somehow be the mood of our year-end special. Full of intrigues and
something to go-figure and laugh about…
First, as we all particularly know my 2012 started
abnormally…
Oh well, not a lot of people get to welcome a year on a
rooftop, seeing fireworks, the skies and the moon plus only around 14 people
who by the way the only citizen of the world you have seen so far because
basically you are all locked up in a social aquarium. Please do add as well, a
handful of cameramen and lights men who are all either wearing bonnet or mask.
Three hundred sixty five and one-fourth days back, why did
we end up on the rooftop?
Yeah, we won the weekly battle of counting down the
remaining hours of 2011 with the use of pure instinct… what I mean is, we have
to predict when will the clock strike 12 midnight with the use of any improvised
device to count time sans the use of any clock or timer…
How is that terrible? Very terrible – imagine, waiting
for the day to be consumed… But how are we more marvellous? Well, we were
near perfect as we were just actually 55-minutes advanced to predicting it
zero-in… *talk about human perfection* and so, we ended up on top of that
building spitting greetings to the world how happy we were to finally see the
skies, breathe air and celebrate New Year, the housemates’ way! ***Yeah boi!***
It was fantastic!
After a little month more, I finally went out and it was all
good.
Oh, well perhaps before I’ve got to read all their social
network bashes…
It was a little bit frustrating but then when you're going
to look at it, I should be ready for those predicaments and I think it was all
relatively fine. Funny but thanks to the guy named Sigmund for saying that it
was all a part of anal-development residual behavior… I could share a lot of
screen captures but there’s this one who really was a perfect example, one that
was written by oh well, a fellow Negrense and I’d long to meet her. Too bad, I
am so not a fan of the cyber crime law…
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| Huya man ta sa yawyaw :-) Tani nag audition siya sa PBB... Amo ni ya nag tuod na basher complete name ang ginasulat... and no holds barred NOTE: I have to erase her name and the people involve for 'her' safety. |
Nan?! Teh? Maano ka d? Haha!
At the end of the day, you laugh at them and say, ‘move on
na pipol, packed up na nag PBB…’
And then the begotten days has come when you suddenly find
yourself in the middle of a limbo. When you just want intimacy to yourself and your closest comrades and
settle-down after you took bath everyday with cameras hovering around you, but people demand most of your time and ask questions like:
1. Gwapo gid man si Slater? --- HUO!
Funny is most people asking are not females, not bekis but
the guys…
2. Si Carlo gid man kag si Wendy? --- Daw indi man…
Ang mga nagapati na tanan na housemates dapat my loveteam.
3. May camera maligo? --- Read the second sentence of the
previous paragraph.
4. Nagdiet ka? Kaniwang sa imo gali/haw? --- Pwede ko ka
diet and lose 20 pounds after 4 days?
5. Sin-o si kuya?
--- AMBOT. Wala gid kami idea sin-o.
Dason piliton ka
paaminon na si Direk Laurenti ang Kuya…
People, wala gid ko idea pero sure ko
na indi siya.
And you can’t just rest because your phone beeps almost
every minute. Greetings from friends and families are so appreciated except for
those people who beforehand, went cuckoo and sila pa ang rason tani ngaa ma disqualify
ka kay gulpi lang ma post sa FB mo
“Joya, goodluck, we are behind you 101%”
---
Heller? Daw the last time I checked, you totally forgot about me… and
just so I would hear later on nga ginsumbatan na ako, kay siya ang nag bayad sang
tarp ko?
Dali lang gid… Diin tani? Kag the last time I checked,
gin-blocked mo ko sa Facebook? WEAK!
And the list continues…
My thoughts on this? Wala… Keribels, boom boom bells lang.
I should reassure myself that amidst everything there lies
the cosmic reality that water will seek its own level.
Half the year passed and so I thought it will be just the typical
routinary activities of pass and play but by the middle of the year God will
surprised me with things I ought to perpetuate a couple of years more.
That somehow when you are half sleeping about the things you
should be doing, desired or deserved, He will wake you up with thunders and
chaos.
Therefore I tell the story of the two peasants who went to
an office with barely thirty hundred pesos signed in and conspired not to be
the best but to be the only one.
Hence, the birth of the very notorious and fate-favored
batmobile-monickered system.
It took the trajectory of flying, first unidentified but
then some things just have to pop and consequently we have to go out in the
open and finally launch on free-web the
EXCELLERO REVIEW SYSTEMS.
It afforded us consistent exposure and a little bit of
hushed popularity. Something we enjoyed but then there also lies the fact in
what the Dark Knight said that the mask is not meant for hiding but to protect
your loved ones. True enough in the middle of everything, there were also the
bombardment of unwarranted and more often far from hypothesis stories.
Did you recall that I once post something about grammar?
Did you recall my all caps post?
I think that when I re-read it all over again I should tell
myself to smile and say, that was entertaining!
It was juts sickening that you were tagged to be the villain,
the copycat, the bone and the ingrate ambitious when all you did was just chase
your dream. And for the information, I am a nurse and a teacher – not a
mechanic, not a farmer and most of all not an embalmer for you to lament and say
that I should shift direction… Sad to say, I’ve only got One Direction and it
sings:
You're insecure
Don't know what for
You're turning
heads when you walk through the door
Don't need make up
To cover up
Being the way that
you are is enough
Everyone else in
the room can see it
Everyone else but
you
(smile if you sang along)
Fast forward to September and I am
more than happy for the way things turned out. And I will be thankful from this
day forward.
It is a miracle that we found
ourselves starting the review season with a small number of strong individuals
who first and foremost trusted us to walk them through their dreams. Some have
failed the exams a couple of times already but their determination to capture
that elusive dream made us steadfast that what we are doing is not just an
ordinary thing, but that the most important thing is that whether we crawl or
cruise, the goal still remains focused and précised on a singular target.
I have hopes that is comparable to
water now that I have them and it even grew bigger as the days went by. These people
are so brave to do things the uncommon way and so there is no point that I should
falter because they are counting on us and we just can’t fail them .
What I always tell my students is
that fortune favors the brave, and I know they have been brave and they
just have to wait for that favor. #countdowntoFebruary
#pioneer
#historical
It is also in this journey that I realized I am travelling in a desert. Such that you see sand, you experience the
heat by day and the cold by night; that it is actually treacherous; that you
see cactus and you meet the oasis; you also harbor scorpions.
I feel funny whenever I remember the
moments when we were tested. When we have no office yet, when we have to stay
at our temporary office, a hide-away which is actually not secretive at all and
talk about plans, when we have to take lunch at turo-turos, something I am very
proud of because it taught me a great deal of appreciation on what I have that
time and what I didn’t have. Contrary to what they popularly spread, we didn’t
work on a humungous budget but let me just emphasize on how big the plans of
God are for us that we were never left wanting but always sufficient. When we
were walking on the streets braving the rains and the sun, I enjoyed it so
much more than the coolness of a car because by enduring so it made the
impossible a little bit more of a comedy which I can’t relate because clearly there
was nothing impossible.
It is in these arduous tasks from
picking wall paints, nail sizes, electrical cords buying that I get to learn
the very minute details of the whole picture and by which I can securely say to
myself and only to my exhausted self in the end of my days
‘I have lived more than
what I was born for.’
In the future, if my students will ask for the
history of our existence and why we have thrived for half a century, by that time
I will smile with calmness that it was a labor of love and passion; Of family’s
strength of fathers and of mothers, of
uncles, of aunties, of friends and of students…
That it happened because of love and not because I have to prove myself
that I am better than someone’s other children…
Of course, the Cinderella story is
not complete without the evil stepsisters and the fairy godmother.
Now this is the interesting part.
There’s none. Char!
I am transfixed on the idea that
they have revealed themselves too quite sooner than I have expected. I cannot
blame them nor anyone because it is not a hidden truth that the ocean will
continue to make waves even if it rains or the sun shines…
I am also slightly saddened because
there would be situations when I have to choose between things and that you end
up choosing to bore the burns and wait for the scab than keep the skin intact
because you just can't wait for the 27 days to peel the dead skins away but
rather cut yourself and bleed.
When there are unexpected, of course
there are the perennial non vertebrate. I don't know then whether there has
been a lapse on Carolus Linneaus’ taxonomy.
No matter how hard you try to save
people you just can’t be the mercenary because one’s belief of triumph is
dependent on the cause and if the cause does not believe the worth of your belief
then all things are futile… it would be more plausible to plant camote on an
arid land, especially if you diligently water the soil. Ka-complicated gid
sang analogy haw?
By sticking to us till the every
end, we saw clearly who were our real allies and friends. In words strongly
said by Daniel, I will help till the very end those who are with us now. I just
find peace in knowing that if there’s one thing I was so proud of is that the
loyalty that I have now was not because I asked people to be loyal to me or
silly asking them where their loyalty belongs because to begin with we never should
ask for it, we earn it.
I just would like to thank the
people who made this 2012 ever more colourful than a 48-piece crayons. For the
support and the strength. I will not mention them one a piece lest I may forget
some but they already know the amount of gratitude that we have for them. I thank
for the inspirations and push the other people gave me too. For the very
significant ‘secret supporter’, the engineer, the OFW, the jedi and all mortals and
immortals who until now are helping us, thank you very much.
To my family and our families – my sacrifices
are nothing as compared to the amount of care and lessons I have learned from
you. That indeed my truest gems are not priced but knowing in solace that I will
forever be the star of the family. #narcissisticmeterrocketing
To my ever dearest friends who
chose to help us carry the task of opening the center everyday – God knows what
we all went through and I am glad I shared it with all of you.
To those who went through with the
plans, the people who worked extra-mile and inspired our students – you guys
rock! The geniuses and the William Wallaces of our time and season – that instead
of begging for ‘mercy’ you shouted ‘freedom’.
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| Braveheart movie: FREEDOM > MERCY |
Now, this is really boring.
But let me end this by saying that
the prediction I received for 2012 were indeed true. That indeed 2012 will be a year of tests, struggles and hardships but the end result will be to test my
character and I have so survived it with five stars.
I am only half the triumph and the
trouble, please wait for the trouble that my very special friend will install. The
other 50% which my dearest Daniel will complete. I thank God that I have someone
who can do the schedules competently, someone who can teach even without sleep,
someone who can answer questions in an eezy, breezy way and most of all for
being there when our students needed it the most.
I learned a lot from you. I love
the deal that we made and if there’s one thing I can truly make it up for you
is not by giving you something money can buy but by giving you a brand new wife
with a DTI Representative and Tatak Pinoy seal. CHAR!
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| No, I'm not pregnant... :-) |
