This is the best lesson that I have learned from the journey I have shared with Daniel in completing our very first passion-turned-opportunity.
Today, on this warm day of the 10th of September, we can finally say that this IS our first day of the review program for nursing that we started to plan and carry out just two months ago.
It was a very difficult ride but I don't remember any of the difficulties now. I am just overwhelmed by the results. The whole thing now is more than what I could have envisioned. I am so proud.
This too has been very controversial as for all you know a lot of stories sprouted, pretty much most of it are unconceived. I won't hide my dismay to a lot of individuals who always thought we can never do it but horrors of all horrors, here we are.
Truth be told, I was the chopping board of all the unnecessary comments, if only I may cite an example, a comment coming from a non-nurse clerk saying "Why start a review center?"
I hope one day I can be rude and tell her:
1. You will never understand because you are not a nurse.
2. In all arrogance can I just say that "Shut up coz you don't know what we've been through..."
3. And, "Ssshhh, quiet, you have not contributed anything..."
4. Lastly, It's not a center, it's a system.
This may appear rude and I ask for apology but sometimes these are the people who just speak their wits out and show their ignorance.
I don't understand why it has always been me, I asked Daniel once, he told me "...only because they can take it to you..." Oh, perhaps he's right, maybe because I am the one known to many but I want to say that yes, I am, I will be and I will take it just please don't blame me when later on, I also take that meltdown I too is entitled.
I know I also have to give credit on the fact that not everyone knew the real stories or so maybe it's just me thinking that they don't know. I wish I could be certain about that because in all fairness to me, despite everything that has been done to me and all the people around me I still kept placid and refused to talk to people about everything that I know. For what I know could only mean two thing when leaked, conjugal destruction and domestic damage. But I'd be honest, sometimes it really dawns on me to just spill everything one time so I can finally end everything but I think I'm still sane to love my enemies afterall.
It isn't a bed of roses but I'm still happy.
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| a popular Bible story |
What I've heard from the movie "It is in fact in life and not death that has no limit..." is true. I consider this another feat in my lifetime, not because of the system we have made but by the very fact that we stood our grounds, took all courage and carry on what a very heavy load. When we walked away one thing is still constant, we still have with us the value our parents taught or perhaps showed us.
I just can't be a frog.
The story is about frogs. Frogs, when they are put in an aquarium would readily adapt in that environment. Now, when you put fire under the aquarium and the water starts to increase in temperature, the frog still stays and not swim away. It still tries to adapt. And finally to a point when the water boils, the frog can no longer swim and now dies in that very environment. Too late. Who killed the frog? Not the boiling water, but the frog himself.
I don't want to be the frog.
This is the exact explanation why I have to swim. I don't want to die. Not physically but my whole being. Conversely, I would rather die fighting for my life and values than live in someone's devaluations. That's why I'm not and I was never scared.
The success and completion of the project will not be possible without the support and love of my family and friends.
To the givers, the captain's wife and the mother. Thank you very much for believing in our cause.
To engineer who the bigot thought is the one he thought it is, forever please think that way, it only shows how ridiculous you are...
To my friends for staying with me. Haha! Our laughs, our claps and our blood are purely butterfly. I don't have to ask for your loyalty.
Thank you for still posing with us and visiting our center despite the fact that the chubby champ said never to post a picture which includes me ad not like any Facebook status. Yes, it's true, no more freedom in social networking! #BOO! #FUNNY! #SCARED! #whatdoyouwantmetodo?tellJoya? #nevermind?
To our students, for teaching us to love our craft and pursue our passion; for continually believing in us and encouraging us to keep going. You are our inspiration.
To our staff, for the strength of holding on and volunteerism, unconditional support, rain or shine and for 'kapit-bisig'. Though I won't be able to provide you lucrative stipends for now, I am so honored as a Filipino to say that I pay taxes, pay their SSS, Pag-ibig, PhilHealth, Medicare and pHcare.
To our families, for telling us to just focus and keep the goal in sight.
To the students who enrolled. Thank you for trusting us and I am praying for the best for all of you. I will never forget all of you.
To all the lecturers who are willingly and generously giving their time and effort to us, thank you so much. One day, I will be able to repay all of you.
To my sources, haha! we're just all haha!
The past months, I have been battered, I endured all the pains and crab-like mentality of the people who still are in denial we can do things.
You may have been following my social networks and saw that I was always at my 'war-of-the-worlds' mode. To tell you honestly, those were already my most 'behaved' ways. Watch out for more fun and exciting trivia. But seriously, I'm fine with everything. I can still endure everything, I will always be A-Okay just as long as I know the people who matter are still smiling at me, saying you can do it. Everything is a part of the journey, embrace.
For as long as I know I am not hurting anyone and no one from my brood is being hurt, I'm gonna maintain peace. I love what I am doing and for all that there is to come, I am prepared.
I thank God for keeping me.
Indeed, we are all entitled to our own happiness. But I hope your happiness is not someone's agony.
I am sorry.
P.S.
I know you will be reading this. I know you will print this just as how you always did before. This is an open letter to you telling:
1. Buy Ms Nosy a Basic Grammar book at National Bookstore. And please, when the subject is plural, the verb must not have an S.
2. STOP!
3. NEVER touch any of my loved ones and what I have labored.
4. I am sure, we all don't wanna hear the story behind the 4 mice, the cat and the van, cash cards and Maria.
5. So much more. So much more.
