highschool crush, 1st boyfriend and the Prince

What if you fall in love with someone not like your dream man? Girls would always dream of a knight in shining armor, probably the one who is tall, chinito, heartthrob, the shool athlete, etc. But what if suddenly you wake up loving someone who is not just your typical high school crush? This I say as the start of reality.

I would be more surprised if we didn’t click as friends rather than as a couple.

While everything sees that I’m this shallow, feisty and talkative girl and you are this calm, cool and collected guy, a lot of people would certainly ask, 

“Why them?”

Let me then point out the things that might have led us into this almost 20 months long relationship. While I have this very estrogenic-drive, let me point out that I’m the analytical type, you are then the rational type. While you are the methodical, I am the intuitive. I am the emotional, you are the objective.

So, you see we are completely not opposite but complementary. So it’s not that opposite attracts but let me say, we collided and like two small particles, there was mergence. So  the Law of Conservation of Energy is really true, that is energy cannot be created nor destroyed, it can only be transformed from one form to another. So therefore, in our case, it is such that our friendship eventually transformed into a kind of love indestructible(?), hence we call ourselves the ‘power couple’.

I know it may be early yet to say these things but let me also correct that this is not a perpetuation of a phenomenon but that in my words I may call it destiny, that is, if we are really meant to be with each other the it will be us. In your own translation, you call it choice. That is, if we want it, then we shall choose to be in it.

Isn’t it funny when at least one of five interprets me as not fitted to be your better half because obviously, everybody loves the nice guy and hates the overturned girl. Well, that would just really be in Hollywood movies.

 Take this for example, you have been thirsty for a decade not being able to drink water and here it is served in your face a glass of water, not just tap but straight from the Alps mountain, what would you do? 

Of course, instincts will say that automatically, you will quench your thirst by gulping that water bottoms up. Now, let me dissect the scenario, your thirst is the longing to be loved, to be quenched, to be filled again. The water is that source of happiness. So you expect me to claim that I’m the water – naah! I am the glass which holds that water. 

While the water is the substance that quenches the thirst, I am that vessel which holds it.

If then it is determinism or randomness, who cares? All in know is that I am very much thankful and appreciative of all these beautiful experience of being in love the first time and probably the last? Like you always say, it is the here and now that all matters because it determines tomorrow. 

For as long as we make each other happy, I’m fine with it. For as long as we grow together, I’m okay with it. You always tell me, I can always go if I really want to, I just want to laugh and say, like as if you’ll let me...

It’s really funny and I guess this makes me high. So high that it’s addicting. And I’m getting to the tolerance level. At the end of this all, whether you are really the frog or the beast, I’m okay with it. Coz it will only take a kiss to make you my Prince. 

Written and 1st published on April 17, 2011.