a new baby?

We are only three in the family, uhm... I mean officially Genzola.
But we're soon gonna be FIVE! 


Now, when we are all grown ups, the youngest brother being 21 already and all are professionals, my parents are starting to have this BABY IN THE HOUSE SYNDROME! It was not a year ago when they brought home my second cousin Ikay to stay with them in our home; the reason basically was to enroll her to the Day Care Center situated just in front of our house. Since then, Ikay has been the new apple of their eyes. Ikay is a four year old girl who has the wits of an old woman and clearly won the hearts of my paternal grandparents, uncles and aunties who are also living within the compound. Now, Ikay is the darling of the crowd, provided with milk, vitamins, dresses and all the other tiny-thimbles a kid needs and wants.  

face painted as a leopard, she loves it

Ikay participating at the summer art class

Bea, Ikay and me

But two weeks ago, the news of another auntie (again) giving birth to a baby boy injected in them the idea of adopting that baby also. Whew! Now, my mother is excited to buy a crib, towels and all the other baby stuffs! If this pushes through it won't be long when the house will be smelling like a baby again and that we will all stay up late at night trying to dance the baby to sleep. 


Now, when I share this story to my friends, they are all just saying one thing, "It's time to give them an apo..." What? Now, we're also haunted by the baby-in-the-house Syndrome. While admittedly I am starting to love babies and the idea of having a baby my own, it still isn't concrete because it just comes and goes. Now, I want, now I don't. But I think for sure, I am scared! Scared probably of the whole concept of motherhood and parenthood. I have one life to look after to, a mouth to feed though budget is not an issue, but it's the intangible things that I am so much worried of. Just the other day, I dreamt of me being pregnant, and I was so scared to death in my dreams, How much more if it's already a reality? 


I am lucky to belong in a family who is very open-minded and supportive. Both our parents are already somewhat hinting us that they want a grandkid, but I think Daniel and I are not yet prepared. It's not about the age but we are still focusing on our careers and our life as being individuals. We still go home to our own family and we don't have to think of another 'life' apart from our own.  In God's proper time, i know I will be a mother but now, just not yet. There are just 101 reasons why we are not yet ready, first thing is we're not yet married.

Baby?